Turn out the lights....

And so it ends. The strike is over and it is back to work tomorrow but I don't think things will be back to normal for a while. The deal is a pretty crappy one but I think a lot of people were scared to the vote passed overwhelmingly. It's a pretty crappy deal especially for the librarians and I can't help but be a little bitter because it was transparent what was happening and everyone knew and acknowledged that the librarians were taking it on the chin and the vote still was what it was.

Now that I have had a night to sleep on it (I wrote the first paragraph yesterday right after the vote) I can honestly say that I am still feeling bitter. I tried to look at it that I am in a better place, career wise, than I was before I took this job but morally and ethically something still sticks in my craw. Regardless of the department or group that got the short end of the stick, and this time it happened to be us in the library, I still find it ethically impermissible to feed the beast this way, at someone else's expense. And that's what just happened. Maybe it's my naive idealistic ideals that I still cling to and maybe this is just the way things are and I just have to accept that this is par for the course. The thing is, I can't just shrug my shoulders and say c'est la vie and call it a day. That would be counter to who I am and those naive idealistic notions that make me who I am and are a part of me like my big nose.

It' s a tough pill to swallow and I guess I'll get over it soon enough but it still doesn't change what happened and what they accepted. Now it's time for me to be accepting.

LL