Now that I have had a night to sleep on it (I wrote the first paragraph yesterday right after the vote) I can honestly say that I am still feeling bitter. I tried to look at it that I am in a better place, career wise, than I was before I took this job but morally and ethically something still sticks in my craw. Regardless of the department or group that got the short end of the stick, and this time it happened to be us in the library, I still find it ethically impermissible to feed the beast this way, at someone else's expense. And that's what just happened. Maybe it's my naive idealistic ideals that I still cling to and maybe this is just the way things are and I just have to accept that this is par for the course. The thing is, I can't just shrug my shoulders and say c'est la vie and call it a day. That would be counter to who I am and those naive idealistic notions that make me who I am and are a part of me like my big nose.
It' s a tough pill to swallow and I guess I'll get over it soon enough but it still doesn't change what happened and what they accepted. Now it's time for me to be accepting.